I wonder
if you'll materialize before me - for me - soon
or if I'll fade into my dreams sooner.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
escape to home
... and when I plunge into the mundane,
you reappear, you pull me back;
and upon your touch, I succumb
to the dream that never left me --
not one second, though I'd been spending my conscious hours
walking the path that does not belong to my heart.
Upon your touch, I realize
you never left me --
not for a second -- and I,
I've always been yours.
you reappear, you pull me back;
and upon your touch, I succumb
to the dream that never left me --
not one second, though I'd been spending my conscious hours
walking the path that does not belong to my heart.
Upon your touch, I realize
you never left me --
not for a second -- and I,
I've always been yours.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Signs
I know I should stop interpreting events, pictures, news, and what-nots as signs. There's no doctrine that says they ARE.
But sometimes it warms the heart just to dream about how things will fall into places magically - comfortably. Easily. Half of me believe they will. The other half chooses to be safe and shrouds itself in doubt.
But however dual my steps be, I'm happy. Haha! It doesn't make sense but I'm happy. Okay, so my sentences aren't really an English major's obra, but still, that's all I can say: I'm happy.
Haha!
Must be the coffee. Or the hazelnut chocolates Tita Marissa gave me. Or the welcome break from studying (what studying?). Or the sweetness I just saw - another proof that there's so much love in the world. I'm all giddy now and at 1:52am, when the phone rang, I even answered the call with a sing-songy "Hell-ooow!" I think the caller was surprised. (He probably thought he dialed the wrong number and called a drogista hotline instead).
Life! Life! I like being around happy people. Their laughter is just... like my own personal sunshine. :)
But sometimes it warms the heart just to dream about how things will fall into places magically - comfortably. Easily. Half of me believe they will. The other half chooses to be safe and shrouds itself in doubt.
But however dual my steps be, I'm happy. Haha! It doesn't make sense but I'm happy. Okay, so my sentences aren't really an English major's obra, but still, that's all I can say: I'm happy.
Haha!
Must be the coffee. Or the hazelnut chocolates Tita Marissa gave me. Or the welcome break from studying (what studying?). Or the sweetness I just saw - another proof that there's so much love in the world. I'm all giddy now and at 1:52am, when the phone rang, I even answered the call with a sing-songy "Hell-ooow!" I think the caller was surprised. (He probably thought he dialed the wrong number and called a drogista hotline instead).
Life! Life! I like being around happy people. Their laughter is just... like my own personal sunshine. :)
Monday, October 6, 2008
catch up
A few weeks ago
+One day, I was at the UP Shopping Center with a friend. As we were walking towards the side exit, I saw a note posted on the door of a pet shop there. Finding the note a bit odd but interesting, I took a picture of it. After a looong looong time (okay, I'm exaggerating things again), I finally got to post it here now.
Present
+It's finals once again! We just finished our Criminal Law Review Exam today and boy, did that suck big time. Political Law Review on Wednesday so, naturally, here I am, in front of my laptop, yakking away.
+It's weird. Being in my senior year feels... weird. It's both bliss and doom. The kind of feeling you get when you're out in the garden on a nice, sunny day. You're smelling the fresh blooms while swishing your floral skirt and while you're waiting for the harbinger to come for you.
+One year next month! Although he was the one who said that our anniversary falls in November - no particular date: just the whole month of November - now, he's rather skeptical about it. When asked, he just answers "from the moment I first saw you." Right.
But, of course, he only says that to me. To the others, it's "Tagal na!"
+How many days til Christmas? 80? I'm excited! Although I know a lot of things would and may happen til then. Release of grades. Halloween. All Soul's Day. All Saint's Day. SEMBREAK! Oh, and finals.
Last year
+Last Christmas (I gave you my heart... laladee da), we went to Baguio. Yep, we left Manila on Christmas day - or night, rather. Specifically, we left at around 11:50 on December 25, 2007. And we got lost along the way, traversing a dark road which looked like it leads to nowhere, or at least to somewhere dangerous. Heck, the road itself was somewhere dangerous - both referring to possible negative elemental/spiritual and physical presence. Luckily, we got back to the highway (after 3hours?) alive. We arrived in Baguio at around 6:30 am, had breakfast at McDonald's, checked in at an upscale hotel, and slept until 3pm or so.
We went to the market to buy strawberries, condensed milk, and pasalubongs. He, being such a thoughtful man (gee, how sarcastic can I get?), gave me a good 10 MINUTES to shop at the ukay-ukay. Be still, my beating heart.
We had dinner - our usual meal of Salad, Pasta, and our favorite HUGE buffalo wings (look! No Pizza, this time! Diet! Diet!) and then met up with a couple of friends for some drinks. Went back to the hotel, fought a bit, fought some more, made up, and left for Manila early the next morning.
I lllluuurve Christmas.
+New Year found us with our friends - his friends and mine. Of course, I spent the earlier part of it with my dad and my stepmom at Hotel Intercon. Thereafter, it was party-time for the young 'uns. Oh, a drunk driver smashed into my car. He intimidated the drunken, err, person to pay for everything and apologize to me and all. Next day, Golda, my niece from Bukidnon, stayed at my house for a night. We went out and went cam-whoring, of course.
Back to the Present
+I know, I know, that was last year's Christmas and New Year. But they were so much fun! I mean, it's rare that I got to go out of town on Christmas day with someone other than members of my family, you know. And, not to mention, spend New Year as I had spent it last year.
+Sunshine is pregnant. She's back in Bukidnon now.
Recalling past trips
+Tin, Marah, Toi, and I are going out of town again this sembreak. The usual trip, you know. We always go on a trip after every semester since 1st year. Well, almost. Another drive with the trio with Marah, Toi, and I suffering from blasted hangovers - grouchy, hungry, thirsty, and all. And Tin would bring out a camera or a camera phone and we would both pose to our heart's content - yes, my hangover would be cured, at least while the camera is snapping away. And we would go visit a church and pray for the salvation of our souls and, of course, our careers. And I'd pray for my love life and general well-being, too.
Yesterday
+Chang just gave me a bit of a news yesterday. I wasn't really surprised. Actually, I was expecting it. She has changed a bit, though - kinda mellowed down. She had this weird look in her eyes, though - I'm not so sure if that's loneliness, confusion, weariness, submission to the will of the world, or understanding. That or she was just tired yesterday. That, or it was just because we were in church. Nah. I think something changed her. I just am not sure if I like the change or not. I'd decide now. I think I kinda like it.
+Better sleep now. Have to wake up early to study. Just. A. Couple. More. Days.
+One day, I was at the UP Shopping Center with a friend. As we were walking towards the side exit, I saw a note posted on the door of a pet shop there. Finding the note a bit odd but interesting, I took a picture of it. After a looong looong time (okay, I'm exaggerating things again), I finally got to post it here now.
Present
+It's finals once again! We just finished our Criminal Law Review Exam today and boy, did that suck big time. Political Law Review on Wednesday so, naturally, here I am, in front of my laptop, yakking away.
+It's weird. Being in my senior year feels... weird. It's both bliss and doom. The kind of feeling you get when you're out in the garden on a nice, sunny day. You're smelling the fresh blooms while swishing your floral skirt and while you're waiting for the harbinger to come for you.
+One year next month! Although he was the one who said that our anniversary falls in November - no particular date: just the whole month of November - now, he's rather skeptical about it. When asked, he just answers "from the moment I first saw you." Right.
But, of course, he only says that to me. To the others, it's "Tagal na!"
+How many days til Christmas? 80? I'm excited! Although I know a lot of things would and may happen til then. Release of grades. Halloween. All Soul's Day. All Saint's Day. SEMBREAK! Oh, and finals.
Last year
+Last Christmas (I gave you my heart... laladee da), we went to Baguio. Yep, we left Manila on Christmas day - or night, rather. Specifically, we left at around 11:50 on December 25, 2007. And we got lost along the way, traversing a dark road which looked like it leads to nowhere, or at least to somewhere dangerous. Heck, the road itself was somewhere dangerous - both referring to possible negative elemental/spiritual and physical presence. Luckily, we got back to the highway (after 3hours?) alive. We arrived in Baguio at around 6:30 am, had breakfast at McDonald's, checked in at an upscale hotel, and slept until 3pm or so.
We went to the market to buy strawberries, condensed milk, and pasalubongs. He, being such a thoughtful man (gee, how sarcastic can I get?), gave me a good 10 MINUTES to shop at the ukay-ukay. Be still, my beating heart.
We had dinner - our usual meal of Salad, Pasta, and our favorite HUGE buffalo wings (look! No Pizza, this time! Diet! Diet!) and then met up with a couple of friends for some drinks. Went back to the hotel, fought a bit, fought some more, made up, and left for Manila early the next morning.
I lllluuurve Christmas.
+New Year found us with our friends - his friends and mine. Of course, I spent the earlier part of it with my dad and my stepmom at Hotel Intercon. Thereafter, it was party-time for the young 'uns. Oh, a drunk driver smashed into my car. He intimidated the drunken, err, person to pay for everything and apologize to me and all. Next day, Golda, my niece from Bukidnon, stayed at my house for a night. We went out and went cam-whoring, of course.
Back to the Present
+I know, I know, that was last year's Christmas and New Year. But they were so much fun! I mean, it's rare that I got to go out of town on Christmas day with someone other than members of my family, you know. And, not to mention, spend New Year as I had spent it last year.
+Sunshine is pregnant. She's back in Bukidnon now.
Recalling past trips
+Tin, Marah, Toi, and I are going out of town again this sembreak. The usual trip, you know. We always go on a trip after every semester since 1st year. Well, almost. Another drive with the trio with Marah, Toi, and I suffering from blasted hangovers - grouchy, hungry, thirsty, and all. And Tin would bring out a camera or a camera phone and we would both pose to our heart's content - yes, my hangover would be cured, at least while the camera is snapping away. And we would go visit a church and pray for the salvation of our souls and, of course, our careers. And I'd pray for my love life and general well-being, too.
Yesterday
+Chang just gave me a bit of a news yesterday. I wasn't really surprised. Actually, I was expecting it. She has changed a bit, though - kinda mellowed down. She had this weird look in her eyes, though - I'm not so sure if that's loneliness, confusion, weariness, submission to the will of the world, or understanding. That or she was just tired yesterday. That, or it was just because we were in church. Nah. I think something changed her. I just am not sure if I like the change or not. I'd decide now. I think I kinda like it.
+Better sleep now. Have to wake up early to study. Just. A. Couple. More. Days.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
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