Assumptions are the mother of all fuck ups.

Rant time, everyone.

1. Sucked in class today. So what else is new?

2. Was all set to go to this drinking thing. But my pals had to cancel since they have a previous engagement. Gah. I didn't want to go by myself. So I went home instead.

3. Was all set to go to this fun thing tomorrow but someone else made plans for me. Understandable. But I really wanted to go... :(

4. Got really hungry while driving home but then when I asked my yaya what's for dinner, she said she didn't cook since she assumed I was eating out since I had no class tomorrow. Gah. Sure. I will never tell her again that we wouldn't have classes the following day.

5. I'm blogging. I'm hungry. I don't want to go out and eat since I don't like eating out alone. Also, I don't want to have to open the gate myself and parking my car again later since my yaya would probably be sleeping in a matter of minutes. Yes, I've thought about having food delivered but then... I'm too pissed to eat now.

6. Someone came up to me earlier and asked if this person and I are now "officially together". I stared at her. I never thought that, at this point (a year has come and gone), "we" still wouldn't be "officially together". What was up with the question? Then I remembered. The person who asked is the "official" girl of a sibling of the person she was asking me about. Does this mean that for the siblings, the person she was referring to and I are still not "officially together"? Good Lord. I am unofficial.

7. *Read the title of this entry.*

8. *Read the title of this entry again and think of other possible reasons why I'm stressing on it.*

9. It has always been a bad, bad idea.

10. I'm all sober now and can see everything. I hope I won't get intoxicated again so as to not be up in Cloud 9 once more.

11. Sigh.

Hate mode. ON.

Why do we drink beer?

1. To socialize.

2. To make it look like we're socializing.

3. To prove we can.

4. Because beer's 'hot'. (Fine. It's usually cold. But it makes you seem hot.)

5. Because of the acquired taste (thanks to hops).

6. Because it relaxes us somehow and makes us sleep better (the latter part of the sentence I don't really agree with).

7. Because beer increases the amount of good cholesterol (HDL) into the bloodstream as well as helps decrease blood clots. (Go, Google it.)

8. Because it warms you up (this number is waaay different from statement 4).

9. Because you get to think more clearly. Trust me.

10. Because it justifies your being a show off. And your being passionate. And emo.

11. Because it allows you to be and everyone else will either forgive you for 'being' or not take your words and actions seriously. (And then you can rest knowing that they'd shrug everything off thereafter. )

12. Because we want beer. And more beer!

13. Peer pressure?

14. Because we'd like to be on the morning news: Minor arrested for DUI.

15. Because we'd like to experiment with tastes.

16. Because we'd like to see (and feel) the aftereffects.

17. Because we don't like the hangovers that hard liquor causes.

18. Because we're Pinoys and huge fans of Red Horse.

19. Because our fathers drink beer. And our forefathers did, too. And their forefathers. And their... zzz.

20. Because beer's fun!

21. Because we don't want to outlive our friends by being squeaky clean and vice-free.

22. Because we want to live crazily for the moment and wake up the next morning to tell the tale. Or to make sure everyone else does not (tell the tale).

23. Because it livens up the world, somehow. Everything's vivid and magical. And, in it, you can be so happy - yes, in that drunken stupor.

24. Because. Just because.

catch up

A few weeks ago
+One day, I was at the UP Shopping Center with a friend. As we were walking towards the side exit, I saw a note posted on the door of a pet shop there. Finding the note a bit odd but interesting, I took a picture of it. After a looong looong time (okay, I'm exaggerating things again), I finally got to post it here now.


Present

+It's finals once again! We just finished our Criminal Law Review Exam today and boy, did that suck big time. Political Law Review on Wednesday so, naturally, here I am, in front of my laptop, yakking away.

+It's weird. Being in my senior year feels... weird. It's both bliss and doom. The kind of feeling you get when you're out in the garden on a nice, sunny day. You're smelling the fresh blooms while swishing your floral skirt and while you're waiting for the harbinger to come for you.

+One year next month! Although he was the one who said that our anniversary falls in November - no particular date: just the whole month of November - now, he's rather skeptical about it. When asked, he just answers "from the moment I first saw you." Right.
But, of course, he only says that to me. To the others, it's "Tagal na!"

+How many days til Christmas? 80? I'm excited! Although I know a lot of things would and may happen til then. Release of grades. Halloween. All Soul's Day. All Saint's Day. SEMBREAK! Oh, and finals.

Last year
+Last Christmas (I gave you my heart... laladee da), we went to Baguio. Yep, we left Manila on Christmas day - or night, rather. Specifically, we left at around 11:50 on December 25, 2007. And we got lost along the way, traversing a dark road which looked like it leads to nowhere, or at least to somewhere dangerous. Heck, the road itself was somewhere dangerous - both referring to possible negative elemental/spiritual and physical presence. Luckily, we got back to the highway (after 3hours?) alive. We arrived in Baguio at around 6:30 am, had breakfast at McDonald's, checked in at an upscale hotel, and slept until 3pm or so.
We went to the market to buy strawberries, condensed milk, and pasalubongs. He, being such a thoughtful man (gee, how sarcastic can I get?), gave me a good 10 MINUTES to shop at the ukay-ukay. Be still, my beating heart.
We had dinner - our usual meal of Salad, Pasta, and our favorite HUGE buffalo wings (look! No Pizza, this time! Diet! Diet!) and then met up with a couple of friends for some drinks. Went back to the hotel, fought a bit, fought some more, made up, and left for Manila early the next morning.
I lllluuurve Christmas.

+New Year found us with our friends - his friends and mine. Of course, I spent the earlier part of it with my dad and my stepmom at Hotel Intercon. Thereafter, it was party-time for the young 'uns. Oh, a drunk driver smashed into my car. He intimidated the drunken, err, person to pay for everything and apologize to me and all. Next day, Golda, my niece from Bukidnon, stayed at my house for a night. We went out and went cam-whoring, of course.

Back to the Present
+I know, I know, that was last year's Christmas and New Year. But they were so much fun! I mean, it's rare that I got to go out of town on Christmas day with someone other than members of my family, you know. And, not to mention, spend New Year as I had spent it last year.

+Sunshine is pregnant. She's back in Bukidnon now.

Recalling past trips
+Tin, Marah, Toi, and I are going out of town again this sembreak. The usual trip, you know. We always go on a trip after every semester since 1st year. Well, almost. Another drive with the trio with Marah, Toi, and I suffering from blasted hangovers - grouchy, hungry, thirsty, and all. And Tin would bring out a camera or a camera phone and we would both pose to our heart's content - yes, my hangover would be cured, at least while the camera is snapping away. And we would go visit a church and pray for the salvation of our souls and, of course, our careers. And I'd pray for my love life and general well-being, too.

Yesterday
+Chang just gave me a bit of a news yesterday. I wasn't really surprised. Actually, I was expecting it. She has changed a bit, though - kinda mellowed down. She had this weird look in her eyes, though - I'm not so sure if that's loneliness, confusion, weariness, submission to the will of the world, or understanding. That or she was just tired yesterday. That, or it was just because we were in church. Nah. I think something changed her. I just am not sure if I like the change or not. I'd decide now. I think I kinda like it.

+Better sleep now. Have to wake up early to study. Just. A. Couple. More. Days.

Truths part 2

I like looking at the postcards sent to PostSecret.

I like singing - in a choir, with somebody, in a karaoke bar, in the bathroom - but not when I have to sing in front of a bunch of people. Alone. With all of them gawking at (and listening to?) me. In those cases, I simply want to blend into the wall.

Friday is the worst day of the week. Traffic is bad, people are so agitated to have the work/schoolweek over and done with (never minding that some of them have to go to work/school on saturday still), and a lot of people just feel the need to randomly gush about their gimmicks or dates or what-have-yous, to the chagrin of those who get stood up or have nowhere to go but to get lost. Me? I hate the fact that I'd have to go all the way to Makati to attend a one hour class with a perennially irritated professor at the helm. If only he were a bit more cheerful or even mild in his ways, I'd have looked forward to seeing him in class.

Today is Friday.

We had dinner with Ate Issa last night and I think she's really great. And Angelo's so adorable - I've only seen him thrice but he said my name already last night! He said, "Ey-ah". Pretty good, huh?

Instead of reading Bernas' primer, I spent an hour this morning reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows for the fourth time (or was it the fifth?).

I've watched "My Sassy Girl" - the original Korean movie - eight (or nine times? ten?) times. I want to watch the Hollywood version next.

I like horses. I'm just afraid they'd kick my ass whenever I'm near their backside.

Last night, I dreamed about the sembreak trip Ten, Tin, Toi, and I are planning. We were off to the beach and I forgot to bring my swimsuits. I brought a formal gown and wore boots filled with puke. In fairness to me, I cleaned the boots (and my feet) and got rid of the puke before we actually left. And it all happened in my dream.

I'm home alone and hungry. Ate Memem and Ate Fey went to the Ob-Gyne so there's no one around to feed me. Funny. I don't even have an Ob-Gyne.

I should start studying for midterms now but I'm too hungry to move away from my salmon pink laptop.

Truths

I'm worried I might be afflicted with colon cancer or with something just as grave but I don't go for a check-up since I don't think I'm prepared to know just yet - that I am sick OR that I'm not sick and have been wasting my time and money thinking I am.

I have to keep my feet warm when I sleep or else they'd ache all through the night.

I have dogs and have had cats and other pets but I'm not (and have not ever) been so close to them since I have this constant fear that if I'd pet them for longer than 1 minute, they'd turn crazy on me and bite my hand off.

Up to now, I've been secretly wishing for a Chris Klein character (refer to his role in Here on Earth) to waltz into my life.

I don't really like my 17" widescreen salmon pink laptop since it's all bulky and heavy and... well, just cumbersome, never mind that it has great specs. But I can't part with it cause my stepmom might just kill me. Anyway, it's great for watching movies. And I think my stepmom's great.

Aside from about 10-15 people I personally know (some of whom are my friends), I don't give my blog's url to those other people who know me because such would then restrict my writing. I'd much rather have total strangers reading my blog than having those I get to see everyday discovering my lines.

I don't put sugar in my coffee. I put a chunk of Toblerone instead.

I like memorizing footnotes although I don't really remember the main entries.

I'm sleepy but denying it since I think it's too early to sleep. It's 12:48am.

10 stuffs that make me happy

inspired by Marah's blog post (www.deepdiver10.multiply.com)

1. late night coffee time with my dad

2. getting decent grades

3. boxing

4. driving home sans the traffic

5. pasalubongs!

6. walking around (in the mall, in the park, around Malaybalay City, to the market in Baguio) with a good friend or two

7. random thoughtful text messages

8. post-it messages passed discreetly in class

9. pictures!

10. buffet dinners that include roast beef, minatamis na saging, chocolate fountain, rice pilaf, and beef kebab (almon marina style or something similar)with Carl

Lines

Been a while since I last wrote an entry and now, I'm bursting with thoughts that I don't know what to write about!

Hence, I'm just going to write a bit about a lot. And, no, I'm not going to delve into my usual melodrama. (Thank heavens for small blessings, huh?)

1. Twyla passed the bar!
Finally, she'd have no more reason to space out and cry and space out again while uttering, "10 percent. 10 percent." as if she were hypnotized by some wicked shopping addict. My question is, will she go back to being... unreligious?

2. I'm into boxing!
Or at least, I was into boxing last month. I haven't gone back to the gym since ... March 19, I guess. I miss bugging the people there and complaining about such hard work.

3. Thank God I'm not a nurse!
I'm a bit scared of blood (geez, I even hate the sight of my own blood). I abhor physical pain. I have the urge to cry and run away just seeing someone sweat profusely because of pain (try watching their faces as they writhe in agony and you'll be traumatized).
And then Carl broke his leg. And now I have to watch him hop his way to wherever. And get him painkillers. And learn how to work a bandage. And force patience on myself.
Geez. The learning process never stops.

4. I'm going home to Bukidnon this summer!
Yeah. And work a bit. And do my thesis. And bask in the sun, breathe in some fresh air... *big grin*

5. I went to Bataan for the Holy Week.

And Subic.

And passed by Mt. Samat.

And when I got home, Carl and I tried the Magnolia Creamery along Aurora. (Try it! Delish!)

6. Finals! Finals!
And yet I'm blogging.
I don't care. I've had a long, terrible day and I. Need. Some. Rest.

7. I wanna do an entry on reminiscence:
about how life was when I was a toddler, high school days, college, early years in law school... Hmmm... I will. Soon.

8. Poker!